My therapist is trying to get me to learn how to feel.
Because I only ever think and intellectualize.
When I was 11, my uncle died. I was really really close to him, but I had to force myself to cry because that was the logical thing to be doing at my uncle's funeral, but I didn't actually feel anything. I was numb. I spoke about him in front of the crowd, but the only reason my voice and my legs were shaking was that I was afraid of people calling me out on my false emotions.
I mean, that could be just how I mourn. Everyone deals with death differently, maybe I just get numb.
But...I get numb like all the time. I don't even get actual crushes...I just get fascinated by people. Like I'd rather get to know them, but not have a relationship with them. Like I don't even feel romantic or sexual attraction to people. I feel physical attraction regardless of gender, but I'm not sexual or even romantic.
Am I broken??